If she tries to unload the responsibility on you do you believe that? Maybe better than feel worsen thinking on mother's behaviour.
Posts: 3 Joined: Wed 10:28 am Local time: Wed 3:22 am Blog: View Blog (0)ĭont feel guilty, be sure if you had said to your mother more and more never she would have done something. I feel very alone as my dad isn't interested (it was his dad) and my mum just makes me feel guilty by saying that she did have a few 'words' but because I didn't say anything to her again she thought it had stopped. I was always favoured (well all girls) he wasn't interested in the boys of the family - he had no time for my brother (who is 2 years older than me) He was still 'funny' with me even to the day he died, when I was 23. one time my nannie called mum, she wouldn't come - she said you cant always come home - your on holiday you should stay - well I was so homesick I was vomiting everywhere and couldn't stop - I believe this is all the reason why I now have a severe phobia of sick and people being sick. When we went on holiday with my grandparents (me and my brother) I was always homesick and quite often my mum would actually come and get me and leave my brother there. One time when I was about 7 I remember we had gone round for dinner and my parents were getting into the car, and I was saying goodbye to grandpa - he said he wanted to French kiss me - to which I didn't know what that was, so ran to mum and told her and she shoved me into the car. she said she had a word with my nannie, but nothing changed.Īnd he was so slobberly, always made me kiss him, I always went for the cheek, but he ALWAYS forced me onto his lips. I on many occasions told my mum that I felt uncomfortable with my grandpa and that he always touches me and puts his fingers in my knickers. We never saw my 3 cousins when we were growing up, and I now know why - he used to abuse my female cousin too, but she told her mum and even my parents (shes 6 years older than me) to stop anything from happening to me - her mum removed her from his presence - mine did not. I remember my grandpa would always give me money secretly and always said, 'don't tell your mum or your brother' he would always inappropriately touch me and show himself to me, many times I cant even pin point one. My Dad worked away a lot and therefore to help my mum out me and my brother would often stay with my grandparents and even go on holiday with them. Although I am now 27, when I was about 6 (maybe younger) my Grandpa started to sexually abuse me and groom me, favouring me over my older brother.